我不哭了，累了，需要休息了。。
所有的东西，都会停留在原点，我们也不再回头望。。
我们也就让回忆停留在原点，不把谁的回忆带走。。
对不起，也只是一种歉意一句话。。但是真正明白对不起的意思，才会把下一秒做得更好。。

眼泪流干了，就不再流了。。
把眼泪擦干，把回忆放下，继续向前走，让自己明天过得更好。。

留下的伤口，虽然无法补救，但却只要把它放下，不再想它，就不痛了。。

不要再迷迷糊糊的痛了，终于要醒了，不要再做错选择了。。
清楚明白自己想要什么，就要好好的把它做好，不要让自己走回以往的路。。

哭了一个星期，终于哭完了，突然好怀念大笑姑婆的我。。
笑得好像傻婆的我。。

谢谢朋友们，你们的关心你们的安慰你们的关怀。。
过了今天，我不再哭了，我会努力寻找以前的我，呵呵大笑的。。

Hey peeps, Im back to blogworld. I promise ..
Anybody still here? ): Im sorry, don't leave my blog kay?

If you follow me in twitter/fb, i was badly down since last week .
But im feeling better now already, thanks all darlings for caring. *hugs*

Was working for BunnyBid in Teenfest 2K10' in Midvalley the past weeks, 12-14Novmeber.
Here's some pix..



Met up with my BabyDear♥ last week for dinner and a lil shopping.
Haha, i think she always have a hard time in deciding which shoe to buy.



Started my sem2 last week. Everything's going fine, is just that, im having 1hour class today from 1035-1135 am -.- and tomorrow 2hours only, 830-1030am . So w-t-f much -.-


Gahhh, it's so bek chek when everything crashed together ..

Jay's concert's tics sales open this weekend, im definately going for his concert but sadly i couldnt queue up for his tics, gotta ask friend to help me buy due to transportation, again . -.-

Loves,
JieyiPinkabell

Sorry peeps, i dint want to leave my blog dead here. Was working at midvalley for Teenfest 2K10 during the past weekends. Then sem2 started this week and now everything crashed ..

I wanna cry out loud now, crying in silence is a pain ..

WIll be back with more updates. Stay tune.

Hearts all (:

I received an email from my previous agent regarding a future job, she dint state the full details so i thought of checking the details in their pages because they might advert the project. Then i saw a msg saying that they have banked in our salary for the previous project and so i quickly went to check via online.

I was so happy myself earned my own hardwork money. Fyi, am easily satisfied person, (: I even saw i did earn myself commission!

This is the only pic i got when i working at Sunway Pyramid Guardian for L'Oreal Elseve project. I stoled this pic from my agency page.

It's my first time promoting products all by myself, ofcourse with the help of Aunty Karen (: You may check back my previous post about working there http://jieyipinkabell.blogspot.com/2010/10/101010.html

I remember when i worked in Maxis last yr, i do promoting too but it was with few colleagues. But this time is all by myself *proud* . Hahaha, blah, ignore me (:

Talalalala .. gonna withdraw the salary and deposit in another bank account to  save the money. LOLs.

Was watching GG season 2 the whole day, (:

Sorry for those annoying tweet/fb statues, saying wtv i wish .. and i wish ..

Currently listening - 苏打绿, 无眠

I aint in the mood right now .. and all i wanna do now is to stay in my own room and that's all.
My room is just my everything, i don't mind if u put a pad lock outside my room, as long i have my phone and lappy with me and everything in my room ..

When im in my room, it feels like, im in my own privacy. I mean, i do not have my own privacy since i was young. I understand when i was young i do not need privacy but im 19 now, already. Don't you people wish you could have your own privacy too? atleast abit?

I always hate people check on my privacy, such as my personal stuff/privacy in my phone/lappy/& wtv. Unless you  ASK for permission. I dont care if your my whoever, but still i deserve respectation kay?

Uhh, i don'n understand. Alright, parents care/worry/concern their child, it's normal, i do understand. But since im already 19, still, i deserve some respectation, don't i?

whatever im saying, who cares?


N years back, im all alone w/o friends. Like totally, no friends AT ALL. Can you imagine your life w/o friends? like none at all ?

I begin to keep everything to myself, cause i find the world is so untrusted. Everyone betrays me, uses me, treat me like a toy and wtv they like. They say i changed because i got a bf? They say i changed because i learn to protect myself?

fyi, i never ever change myself before. If only you know the true me.

From THOSE numbers of happened, i never talk much, i became quiet and being silence. I've got no one to talk to when im sad, so i began to cut myself, let the pain numbed the sad/hurts. I still do that sometimes.

It doesnt mean i don't love myself, it just that i cant stand those feelings. All the betray, all the left out, all the lies, and so many things .. What do you think if i say i don't even fully trust my parents? haha, i know it's funny.

even till now, there are people i trusted so much, they lie and betray me. haha!

Till N years, i met my two bff, but they are guys.

I always jealous other girls share their girls stuff, their bras with their girlfriend. I can barely go out, i barely have topics with people, i barely speak in the crowd, i barely get to know better/closer friends.

Therefore, i love going schl/college, because i have curfew, i cant go out often, and i got no one to go out with. (: I smell freedom and privacy when i attend schl/coll. because i got no curfew and no limitation ..

But after all the life-experiences, there's always one and only thing, which is the fear of facing people around me. I always afraid, "will he/she ....." all types of questions, and sometimes, i can bear with those feelings. I can say, it's hard for me to make friends, because im afraid. Im just too weak.

I can barely fully trust a person, and i did for once, but he just decided to left me by not trusting me.

How do you feel when your beloved one decided to leave you just because he/she cannot put their trust on you? or he/she cannot forgive your mistake? or .....

When im finally 18, i love finding freelance job non stop. I start making my own decision, but still .. i do not deserve to make my own decision, if i ever make a decision and the top one doesnt allow/like it, there goes my life .

Reason i love looking for jobs, besides i can earn MY OWN money, i get to know more people. Honey Jeanie, i can consider her as my very first girl-friend after N years. I was so happy she doesnt mind being friends with me (: then i get to know Babe Sharon, my second girl-friend. We had the same common/likes. Love you babes (:

Like what bff said, it's really hard to get to know people have the same common with you and become besties. I know, but i'll appreciate my two lovely babes, though we aint that close friends, but thank god for giving me the chance to get to know them (:

Life is just scary, for me.

Things are unpredictable, after 18years of my life. I've learnt alot (: Thank you for those people who betrayed me, used me, disliked me and all the hurts given. It allows me to learn so many lessons, in order to grow up.

Though i barely smile/laugh truly when im out of my room, though i still cry alone in silent with myself, though i always act strong outside but never inside, and all ..

Thank you for judges/comments/opinions, Im always who i am, and i don't change, but i improve (:

Loves,
JieyiPinkabell

It's tuesday already, 6more days to classssss =/

This is the top i bought from Uniqlo for rm39.90, it's an inner collection. I looks so fat w/ this =X

I always wish i could be in the tv, that's one of my dream.
Somehow i found this tvc vacancy and i applied and im requested to go for a casting within these few days so hun said he'll fetch me there tmr (:
it's just a casting, but i feels nervous though it's not my first time.

I've went casting for twice, first time was when i was age 11 for a milo commercial. But i did not get chosen cause they said i swam too fast -.-
Another one was for a movie, i manage to pass all my stages but i din't get chosen in the end.
Hmm, gotta try my luck and best for tomorrow's casting. (:

I failed in the water-marble nail art, idk why. I followed every single steps correctly, and it's all because i have lousy nail colors -.- even i used OPI still phailed max! ):

Big sob.

Went Farenheit88 today, second time visit there.

Im sure everyone knows that Uniqlo launched on the past Thursday and i heard it was superbly flooded. LOLs. And i pretty believe now.

The putted a queue outside the shop and only opened 1 entrance. There's total of 3 floors of Uniqlo. The queue never shorten, but we still went to the queue and patiently wait for our turn.

Within 10minutes it's our turn. It's all about winter season clothes in Uniqlo, i think the prices are all fine and they're now having promo rm49.90 of most of the item (np rm79.90) .

I wanted this sweater, but it's rm99.90 so i rather not get it. I only bought a long sleeves top w/ only rm39.90 . it's a inner wear, something like to keep you warm.

Went to this shop called Ola, and spotted this skirt.

Pretty love it and it's rm69.90. I don't mind paying myself but mommy doesn't allow ): I wanted to get this and another black and white strips one, so i can have new skirt for coll formal wear (: but still, ): Gonna try look around in Sunway Pyramid Asian Avenue next week.



They have like 2 items for rm100 and i spotted this ..

Layered sleeveless top. (:

It's kinda cute, myself already have few of this type top. But since no body wants to buy so i dint get it cause it's 2 for rm100 and if my aunt could get her size, she's paying for it. Kekek ..


Mmmm, another week is ending and i left another week to back to study. Hmmmm ..


Teehee, bye :D

Don't ask me why i don't update my blog that regularly =/

Yesterday was fully scheduled.

Accompanied hun to dentist at 930am, then bert came to pick me at 1130am to OUG for a job briefing (next week fri - sun, Teenfest @ MV), then down to Sunway Pyramid to meet up with babe sharon at 2pm for a job interview at Wangsa maju (job on 25/nov). What a bad jam otw there.

Had dinner at wangsa walk with babe's friend, emily. (: A lil shopping then home around 530pm. and the jam was seriously badd max. Well, atleast the jam gave me a sweet time which i wanted for so long in my life. (: thanks babe.

Hmmmmm ..

021110 was babysis's 10th bday. Gave her a bday celebration, will blog about it next time (:

Did you notice i always gives an empty promise? I realized that, =/ I'm so sorry.

Kinda bit regret taking Web Media, i aint creative at all, im gonna fail in this path. But it's too late to change now and if so am wasted alot money ):

All i can do now is to work harder, learn harder. Hmm ..

babe sharon gave me a black ribbon hairband. It's tying on my hair, and din't take a picture of it cause all i rmb is to use it. hahah ..

Gonna meet up with BFF tmr night, or either Sunday night. Then gonna plan a day to meet up with my honey jeanie & probably calling daphne too next week wed/thurs. Hopefully she'll be free. Haha :D

My life is feeling better now, :D If only you know why, (:

*hugs* .

♥

It's ze first day of November. 011110 . Seems cook aye?
Time flies, October end. College starting in 2 weeks time.
I remembered i was saying how am i gonna spend my 5weeks break. Well, at least i never waste it this time (:

Let's recall back my past 3 weeks holidays.

I was working and working ..
Accompanied mummy to places and places ..
My 1day KL trip w/ cousin ..
Days w/ the loves & families ..
Greatgrandma's bday dinner ..

and that's all i think ?

Blah, i can never rmb things .. Superbly forgetful, nor even amnesia sometimes -.-

Got job on this coming Fri - Sun at KJ's Sport Complex .
An Interview for future job on this Thursday w/ gf Sharon and dinner after that.
Babysis's bday celebration on tmr, her actual day. Gonna go out for a lil shopping w/ mummy before that.

Hmm, date w/ darling Jeanie next week for BBQ plaza and hang out (: I miss you babe!

How fast time fly, sometimes i wanna say 5weeks holidays isn't enough for everything. But i can do everything & anything in anytime (: Uni life is just relax sometimes w/o assignments .

Havent meet w/ the BBF♥ for some times. Planning to give them a call for a yum cha on Wed (:

Life life .. (: