今天是三月的最后一天，感觉好像没什么不舍，但却又不想这么快过完今天。时间过得好快，我正在考试中，然后就读完Degree Year1，五月要进Degree Year2了，一眨眼，我又读完一年书。

今年的三月，过得还好。Let's recap ..
三月好忙噢，都被功课和考试填满。三月四号，我们的五周年，过得还好，三月五号是杰伦演唱会，high翻了！三月九号，我的生日，过得还好，都是笑着过，很满意^^ 。三月也没什么特别耶，无聊两个字。但至少今年的三月都过得好，每一年三月的来临，就是我的噩梦开始。今年的三月，使我鼓起了最大的勇气去面对，真的不容易。往年的三月，大概连续三年的三月，都过得很凄惨，很不开心，很低落，所以今年的三月，变成了我的阴影，虽然说今年的三月我都过得还ok，但都藏着微微害怕的感觉。好害怕历史会重演或什么的，但感谢我都圆满的好好过完了三月，唯有今天最bek cek，follow我在twitter或fb就会懂了。

啊，妈咪五月头的两个星期去Sydney做工，runner。很难得这次我放假可以跟他去，但鸡蛋糕我要帮伯伯当他女儿的司机，每天载他放学，十天耶！不然我就可以去玩了。讨厌！本来上个星期妈咪去台湾做runner,我本来可以跟着去，但他是29号回来，我又考试，所以不能跟，不然他说就可以extend那trip到四月一号。唉！

突然有个冲动好想去马六甲的Jongker Street，哈哈！我好喜欢那里！最后一次去是两年前，那时是很大班，我们一家人，舅舅两家和沙巴阿姨一家。我好想念我阿姨噢，最怀念当年我们两个人三更半夜起身聊天，聊了几晚。回想当时，觉得那些人真得好无聊，大不透的，不说这些，秘密(:

不说了，明天没有考试，可以好好睡一番！呵呵。。

从小到大，我读书不是第一，不是最好，还算是中等不错，我清楚知道，在所有亲戚朋友里，我都是比较差，这我认，读书以前比妹妹好，可我没有炫耀骄傲过，我清楚知道我自己不是读书的材料，所以成绩都是平等，ABCDE 五级都会有。小学时，成绩算不错，都只有AB，除了马来文一定D或E。到了中学，稍微退步了，每年都只拿一颗A，其他的都是CDE。

到了中三，我承认我学坏了，但过后的成绩都一直上，过后的我，变得比以前乖很多，好很多，SPM我都考得还好，都有A。除了历史fail,其他统统都是ABCD。每个人都知道我的读书程度，爸爸妈妈都是要求我们考得好，每课pass就好了。

但自从我变坏后，每个人都已经不把我放在眼里，凡是都看低我，我都罢，就算我改得多乖多好，他们只会哦一句，我也无所谓，但为什么偏要拿我和亲戚他们比较？考试读书好，又怎样？成绩差读书差的人，就不是好人吗？难道就不能试着去给他们机会改好，进步吗？

因为你是我长辈，我永远都原谅你，气完我不把它放在心里，我这个人虽然没有脾气，或许我应该说我有脾气但是脾气很好，可是我也有感觉也有我的信心和自尊心啊，难道曾经是坏人，就可以任你们随便侮辱吗？

对，妹妹这次考试的确好过我，我也替他很开心啊，但有必要说的那么大声清楚，”你妹妹考试读书比你好！“ 你说这句，我也罢了，但没必要把成年旧事搬出来讲啊？难道我没有改好吗？难道我这些年所做的都是废的吗？

我好的时候，你们夸的龙凤地转，我稍微懒了一下，你把我糟踏得一文不值。我的信心和自尊，就一次一次的被你们打败，你要我怎样？

我好的时候，你们谁看见过？我每次都把你们的侮辱当耳边风，然后做得更好去证明给你们看，可是呢？我好的你们都把它当成是废的。难道我现在勤劳读书，你们也要来糟踏我吗？难道我就永远是个坏孩子吗？你不爽我怎样，你就吊我吊得半死，隔天我还是笑着对你爱你，难道你是我长辈，你就可以有权利的对我时好时坏？

就如我今天对你说的一句话，你就当我不曾改过，不曾读过书！我受够了！

总之我是我，我做什么我不需要跟任何人交待，我会慢慢利用时间告诉你我的未来，你们爱看扁我，随你们的便，不干我事，我已经二十岁，我的人生是怎样，我自己负责，你要说，就请给指导，如果你要训导我，谢谢不用客气我心领了。

Edited with iPhone 3Gs - Phoster & Instagram app.

A random post, i really feels like blogging yet i've got nothing in mind of what to blog about. =/
It's buffer week and exams on next week, 29, 31, Mar & 4, 6, 8, Apr . First paper on 29th and im completely no confident in it at all, ): because it's the one and only module i never pay attention at all, screw! Gotta hardcore studying, but on the other hand, i still have assignment due on this friday and i've only done  only 10% of the overall documentation. :( waiting for groupmate to send me details and squeezing my brain juice while waiting.

The weather is so warmy and nice every morning recently. Because it keep raining throughout the night, and everyday!

Feel so down these days because my right toe got infected since last two weeks. ): sigh, Big sigh sigh. Gotta back to hos to see doctor soon, tsk. Days are so boring, home home home, and no money to go out! damnit ): i only have rm5 in my purse which already lasted me for 4days, because im home all the time so thankgod i dont have to use a buck, plus bi always treat me lunch when i see him (: ngekk !

So sad, daddy advice me not to take japanese food & sashimi for some time due to the radiation, ): but im craving for western recently, and im craving for bubuchacha now! Mummy just finish her work and she said she'll try to da bao for me if the stall is still open. (: awwww <3

Keep playing Kenny G's music for more than 2 hours after my dinner, i just feel like listening to music like this and i have this impulse and feeling to learn saxophone since a month ago, LOL. But bi and mummy daddy and everyone advice me not to because i have no "gas" energy, haha. But i always admire saxophone, =/

 Captured this randomly last week, :D i was too bored alone in my room one day, so i was playing around with all my teddies :D

Teehee, ;)

Feel like blogging but don't know what to write, so many feelings in my heart, it's complicated. & i aint gonna tell it out here, (: It's a secret that gonna stay deep down in my heart, <3

Just a random post, writing random sentence, (: Goodnight.

Hello peeps, im not updating my blog frequently anymore. like once or twice a week, i know imma sucky blogger, as always.

After Jay's concert and Bday, the both fun day, imma back to presentations and assignments days. Finally i left one and only assignment which will be due on 25th Mar, but disasters not ending yet, i still have two presentations tomorrow. I feel guilty for not participating much in group assignment, the very first time in my entire life. Sorry ): My bad, my fault. I only did 5% of the entire work, sigh. I feel so !@#$%^&* idk, imma getting suck-ier, tsk!

Exams are in 2 weeks time, 29,31,4,6,8 . sucks, kinda worried tho. I have 5 subject for each sem in yr1 . im going yr2 in 2months time, omg. time flies, im finishing yr1 degree in 3 weeks time. ):

so yea, my life is doing so-far-so-good. met up with some old friends on last saturday night, kinda happy seeing them after so long (: hanged out with gf jeanie on last saturday noon for lunch and some catch up (:

Yes, all gifted by the sweetie sapo. thanks babe, no more next time kay, you makes me feel so guilty for getting you so lil stuff yet you always gift me a big pack ><

i am so blur recently, idk why. i can just stun and stare at a thing and my mind goes blank -.- and i couldnt event sleep well, idk why -.- dreams kept disturbing me, and make me yawn like no body business and then i feel dizzy and tired like i've carried hundreds of big sand pack. lol. not forget and will never gonna forget that i dreamed Jay on the saturday & sunday morning, OMG! *slap slap* XD i probably think too much of him, hahaha. his songs play everyday in my room. :D *peace* ^^v

I am so broke after his concert, was wanted to sell out his limited edition stuff that i've bought, but now i mm seh dak so i rather broke and hardcore apply job now. ): kinda miss those days that i kept hardcore applying job and those freelance days (: it remind me of you btw, how are you?

Hopefully my toes are getting better cause the right one got infected, i ate abit of eggs in past weeks. now swollen and pain and bleed abit and got the green watery thingy, wtv idk what it call. Sigh it not gonna getting better, my job applications gotta strike off ): Boo jieyi!

Time flies, Im official twenty ! gosh, no longer with tens. Now begin with twenties >< S-O-B . Still a kiddo anyway (:

Some of you may have know my past stories, i even posted in my blog of my every year birthday. Dont wanna link it here, i cried for my 4 birthdays for the entire day. No joke, and those were all disasters. Therefore birthday is just another day for me and i even got phobia to it. So i did not put any hope nor expect anything. And i was thinking yesterday, past years i was still young with naive thinking, always expected alot on birthday, tot it could be like that like this, want to it be how and how .. After all the ups and downs, i clearly known 1 thing i want that on, i dont need big surprises or celebrations, i dont need amount of presents, i dont need 9 of march to be how special it could, cause all i want on the day is only a word, Happy (: You dont make me cry u dont make me sad, i dont mind if im staying at home the whole day long and receive texts, messages wishing me happy birthday, as long as im feeling happy and nothing bring me down, that's all i want for every year birthday (:

不需要礼物，不需要烟火，不需要派对，开心就好，笑容就够了。

So yea, as usual, i woke up and attend class this morning. Off to hun's place after class (: He bought me to Secret Recipe to get me my fav cakes Cappucino cheese & raspberry cheese, (: then bought gummy bears & cookies from Famous Amos .

Thank hun for acheiving your promises (:

Off to dinner with BFF & GF at OU delicious.


Thank you darlings, (: One of my wish came true - Dinner on my birthday with my beloved bffs (:

Sharon left earlier around 930 and we left around 10 then mommy and sis gave me a lil surprise at home, that's what they do every year (: Mommy will never forget to get her child a birthday cake no matter how busy she is (: I remember there's the first yr she was working overseas on my birthday and i cried cause she wasnt there to celebrate with me. Haha .. Family is very important to me (:

Hello Kitty cake from Mummy :D How sweet is she (:

Card made by my two lovely sis (:

Present from GF Sharon (; Necklace, perfume & top .

Charles & Keith from BFF :D


Once again, thanks for all the wishes in Facebook, Twitter, sms and calls (: I appreciate alot.


There goes another day (: Nothing much special, but im feeling much happier than the other days (:

哎哟! attended Jay Chou's concert yesterday :D Who's there? I remember seeing quite alot of ppl in my fb list was there, :D It was an awesome great fabulous fantastic ichiban concert, but a lil sad and disappointment is that his voice somehow hurts due to the previous night was the first show in M'sia.  But still he performed his very best yesterday.

The concert starts around 830PM but i was there since 11AM (: Just to queue up to buy his stuff which start selling at around 1-2PM .

So many they are selling yet so many run out of stock ):

Iphone 3Gs & 4 cases (: total 6 of em, rm50/each

Key chain with a mirror at the back, bought 1, rm25/each

Robot set, bought 1 set, rm110/set

Bought 1 cap, rm40/each. keychain gifted by friend (:

Bought 2 pillow case, rm50/each

and orders 3 Pink Tshirt, rm75/each .

3D cards for free, Rm70 you'll get one, and there's 11 i got.

Total up rm835 i've spent. =/ but ofcos 2 sets iphone cases, 1 pillow case and 1 t shirt are not mine. :D

View from my seat, PS1 Block L4 K2 .

Went with few friends and their friends so total 6 of us and some of their other friends.

Took 100 of pics only, due to FAR view, ): Pics time, sorry for the bad quality after zoomed in, using Nikon Coolpix S620 . (:

The show started off with 2 local singer, which is somehow unknown to me -.-












:D The show was ended with 双截棍 and he threw his 双截棍 to the rock zone, awww !

Wheeee :D