Time flies, first quarter of the year left just two more days and we are entering the 2nd quarter.

How's everyone doing so far? Me, progressing...

I'm currently at the cross path, in 2019, I started a part of what I always wanted to do which I never pursued and gave up midway. At the same time, building up new things and also continuing what I've been doing for years (my career).

Purpose of writing this randomly is because I miss those old days writing diary then converted into blog about my days, my feelings, my thoughts.. those hassle-care-free days, just give a shot to do whatever I wanted and half way, I lost my path.

Reason why 2019 I decided to continue what I used to passionated about, is because, "why not?" came into my mind that, time don't wait and once it's gone, it's gone forever. If I don't do it now, then when? There's never a right time to do anything, neither to judge if it's right or wrong to do a thing that we ourselves like.

We won't know to where of what we are doing will lead us to, but if we don't do, we'll probably just regret and there'll be nothing to look back. We can't assure if the end of what we did will lead to our final goal, but this is life right?

What's most important is that we enjoy and love what we are doing, it's okay to fall nor don't foresee the destination. The only person you are destined is the person you decide to be.

This is definitely not my first time feeling lost in life, but I told myself, it's okay, this is life. There're junctions, cross path in every journey. Just keep going, give a timeline, do it, try it. Don't let the surrounding stop what you are doing, all you need in your self-assurance, self-belief & faith.

Because you hold your own life, you make the decision to where you want to be.

Hang on, don't let the tough time break us down. The sun set & rise, so it's okay to fall, and we rise after that. Keep going girl :)

Valentine's day, a celebration of romance, romantic love in all religion around the world...

What's valentine to you?

Valentine's day, some made it a special day in their relationship, some said everyday would be valentine's day as long both being in love everyday.

And yes, to me, valentine's day is just another lovely day for us but no doubt, we'd make it an excuse for us to have good dinner, & gifts? ;p But most importantly, having each others company, especially spending quality time together...

We had a deal made when we started this relationship, that we will give full respect & full freedom of each others personal/private time, but the 3 special dates (birthday, valentine, anniversary) and weekends must belong to each other (unless something's up)

We both have our own career, our own schedule, our own routine. That's what we don't interrupt and less involve. And therefore, it what make us concern more on our time spending together, & communication plays a real big role in the relationship..

Now we are 190miles apart (not that far, i know) but it's still a distance that we only meet 3-4days a month, which is a real big challenge for us.

Mobile phone is our only connection, throughout the months, we definitely have learned a lot. Not just how to manage a long distance relationship but self development. Mentally thought & emotions, both that matters really a lot not just in a relationship but also ourselves, and that what we needed most to support each other.

We sort of mentally broke down and bad emotional at the beginning with all the things happened individually, but slowly we talked about it and learn from every break down.

We learned that, at every stage of life we have different obstacles, tasks & responsibilities. That's how people grow as well. But I'm thankful that he never fail to hold on to us tightly, telling me that we will be fine, we encourage each other at most time.

Through these, no gift values more than the time we could have together and that's all I ever ask for, for every occasions. It is the most precious valuable gift, - quality time.


Never forget to cherish, appreciate, and most important, ACCEPT every flaws, because no one's perfect and no one will ever be. Also, nothing makes perfection if we do not know how to accept one and another, because that's what we need in Love.

Happy Valentine's Day to all love birds :)

I've got my photos from Mike, very much thank you :D

Here's two i picked that i like.


I think this is superb cool!


and i like this :D It somehow shows my mood.

:D

Girls just love to picture pretty much, every girls' want.

No girls can ever leave without "camwhore" the word, spoken in malaysia.

I'm sorry, i just afraid the word "camwhore". My aunt from US actually screwed me very badly for using the word "CAMWHORE" cause i AINT a whore! LMAO.

I finally start trying out to cam myself with my mini instant camera, and im superbly lovin' it! I always love the effect of instant camera's result. It always gives you mostly what you want.

and it has a diff feeling with it. Don't you think so?


I love the left one. :D


Both cam during family dinner just now.

SO yea, i have things to blog since it's just a random post.


There's so many cannot be spoken out, it has to be secret to certain people, my parents. which about my relationship .

I'm sorry if i said i feel so lifeless sometimes in my tweet.  I DO LOVE MY LIFE AND THANKFUL TO MY PARENTS OKAY .

But what i want to say is, sometime i wish i could have a lil bit diff life like not that over control in my life, seriously.

I sometimes wish to do what others could, like night life such as yum cha till 12am, overnight trip with friends and bf, no underground relationship .. get what i mean?

im sure this is what the basic things everybody wants for. I'm very thankful i have such pretty-overly strict parents. But i do need a slightly more freedom, and there's nothing diff "CURFEW EXTENDED".

I wish i could share my relationship-talk with mummy daddy, telling them about how my relationship going on, giving advices, breakfast lunch dinner together with mummy daddy and bf .. and those .. isn't this is so nice and many many unwanted things will never happen.

Ofcouse, i don't blame them for doing this. I do understand, and i don't mind my dad dislike and doesnt accept bf, but he should not came out with those hurting words about bf. I mean, even i lied we're friends, he still hate me meeting him, hanging out with him. He controls who are my friend, how i met my friends .. I understand why he did so, but can somebody stand on my side and think for me and understand how i feel and stop giving advice saying i'm wrong because none of you understand the actual situation..

It's been so long there's somebody standing on my side to think and understand me, only bf. and there's so many things im sure i don't need to speak them out here.. because i don need to hurt anyone and i don't need opinion from people who doesn't actually know the truth and giving me the so-called mature thinking advices.

Sighs, i'm sorry if i've offence any of you. Cause i've been keeping so much inside and i just have to complains some time.

I say, who know the true fact of Jieyi?

The title say it all, im still feeling like a 5yr old kid nao.

I went through many bloggies. turning back to mine, a kiddy bloggy . LOLs.

But honestly, i barely feel myself a 19 year old girl.

My dad warn me after going out 4 Saturdays, only.

I don't think it's too much going out ONLY once in a week, overall i only go out 4 times per month.

wtf.

Yet he WARNED me. Blah, i do say all the time, i've got used to it. But seriously i just wanna make myself feel more like a legal person, though my curfew extended..LIKE-REALLY-EXTENDED.  hahaa!

it's just half way typing, but i know most of you is saying "there are many poorer than you" or things like that. But if you want to read this, you don't come to compare me with others k? me here just telling my feelings.

I must say i do love my family and they way they take care and protect me. But sometimes i just wish to be abit more like the others 19 year old people.

i didn't mean like, going clubs and have such fantastic powderful night. But atleast no warning from going out only ONCE in a week lor.

Tsk, besides, i do appreciate nags from them and i do understand. but, like everyone say to me all the time, "great, you so gonna wait till 21, haha" -.-

Like seriously, my no-curfew no-warns only when im after 21?

i don't blame how they controls me, but sometimes the words they say .. i think it's too much.

a very good example, "NO! he is so much diff from them" (meaning behind: He= no studies type Them=my coll mate/schl friends) isn't this is crisis? or wtv to describe.

 I mean, hello, everyone is the same okay. you don't have to wear colour-specs or make yourself like having dog-eyes looking down on people.

Gawdd ..

Let's not spoil the post yet.

I received photos from JackieLoi, one of the photographer.

I personally love this one among all ..

Well, i've said before i prefer landscape and photos like this.. (:

I think this is nice too, and 1 more ..

i likey this 3 the most among all.

and i think it's really time for DIET PLAN, i know im always never-ending-diet. Diet plan of mine actually not everyday, hahaa .. cos sometimes tired and lazy then skip . aiks ..

i think i must really improve my english real soon. Reading so many bloggies and back to mine, feelin' like a 5yr old blog. tsk tsk ..

Oh ya, im planning to straighten my hair but it kind costy. rm238 included treatments and cut. Ofcourse me not gonna cut my hair but mayb trim my fringe..

still thinking, sumore need to buy my baby iphone  .. and buffet with gong, (cos i said i wanna treat him), and mayb dinner on mother's day (also count half on me) .. if like that, i'll left only abit of my salary and no shopping liao. =X