Hello 2019, hello people :) Hasnt been writing since ...
As the title said, so I decided to write about my 2019, because it not wonderful but somehow it's great.

2018 marked one of the not-so-great year, that I was completely lost about my own life.
and I chose to embrace it and live on beautifully in 2019.

I wouldn't say that 2019 is amazing but it's a year that I have finally found and clear of my own journey in life.

Some memories that I picked, to be remembered here ..


My first career every since in Uni till graduated, Insurance Agent / Wealth Management Adviser marked the 7th year this year. And our agency decided made a whole new change for better growth and positioned as Business Director now. I must say that, it was tough for all of us but it is definitely great and amazing for this transition because everyone is doing way better with the new and better vision direction in this career. I'm definitely thankful to whom I called my bosses, their support and guidance and encouragement.


A must to be remembered is our family yearly trip. Though it wasn't a complete one but this trip filled with great memories and it definitely brought us closer. And also I wanna say that, I really am thankful for my family, they have been supporting me, encouraging me, guiding me and be with me through the up and down. I wouldn't survive today without them and I wouldn't be who am I doing what I am doing now without their love.


Online business may not be considered by many of you, but I decided to gave myself one more chance to take this seriously and so I committed myself as a Director in this business. Yes, this is what we call as "Wei Shang - 微商". Main reason is because I love doing business but I never know where to start from and I definitely have failed in my previous wei shang business because I did not position myself with the right attitude and mindset, but this time, I must say it's real. By taking this product also because I personally consumed it, and with proven result that I do believe this product does help all you girls out there. Not forget to mention the business model is way more different than any other online business. So yea, I joined E+ and must not forget to mention also that big thank to each and everyone in the team, I learnt so much and I'm sure we can do even better to build this!


I'm not a christian, and I'm open to explore. I was on empty schedule on the Christmas Eve, so I decided to accept my friend's invitation to join their church Candle Light Service. and it was so beautiful, listening to beautiful soul stories as well. My first Candle Light Service and it was a great night, having good peace in my heart, flashing back down the memory lane throughout the year. I just wanna say, thank you.


Not the last yet, One memory that I must include in is visiting the orphanage on the Christmas.
I have never done this and I never regret doing this. I always believe and thinks that kids are our future, they are such an adorable beautiful angels. They deserve love and care and many more. They journey ahead is way long more. I hand picked and packed each of them a gift bag, personalised with their name on it. Each with a set of stationary and book and a Christmas cookie. Trust me, their smile on their face when they took over the gift from my hand were priceless! It melts my heart.


I hope this picture doesn't scares you, and yea nothing scary actually. But one thing that I wanna share and be remembered, those experiences and feelings deep in my heart.
I fell off with gastric bacteria infection in the last quarter of the year, suffered from pain and bloated stomach (now still on & off) , still on medication now and next check up will be in few weeks.
This experience was, I'd say a life lesson that made me stronger. I was so so weak during my admission, couldn't stop crying from the drips, needles and pain in the entire body. I couldn't think straight in those nights, I know it wasn't anything serious but it was the weak down feelings in me, first time in my life. But through these feelings, I became stronger in my soul, and my heart. Oh, I actually consulted 2nd doctor's opinion for better diagnosis. Nothing too serious, nothing harmful, I just gonna keep on with medication till my next check up and I really wish to say goodbye to these.

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How have your year been? In overall, I wanna say thank you 2019. Thank you for the people I met, thank you for those who still sticks around and thank you for those who left.
With the people around, with the memories and incidents throughout the year, it encouraged me to finally move on to better journey ahead, the change of life, change of mindset. For better growth, for better self development, for better future.

It ain't easy to live on and move on, but I finally did by seeing the values and with clear vision in my mind. I think it matters most in everything we do, know what exactly we want and just do it.

To me, regret is worst than failure. Life may be short or long, it's unpredictable. Time don't wait either, it's either you give it a shot, do it now, or stuck yourself with regrets by end of the day.

Once again, Thank you 2019. Till then, <3

Time flies, first quarter of the year left just two more days and we are entering the 2nd quarter.

How's everyone doing so far? Me, progressing...

I'm currently at the cross path, in 2019, I started a part of what I always wanted to do which I never pursued and gave up midway. At the same time, building up new things and also continuing what I've been doing for years (my career).

Purpose of writing this randomly is because I miss those old days writing diary then converted into blog about my days, my feelings, my thoughts.. those hassle-care-free days, just give a shot to do whatever I wanted and half way, I lost my path.

Reason why 2019 I decided to continue what I used to passionated about, is because, "why not?" came into my mind that, time don't wait and once it's gone, it's gone forever. If I don't do it now, then when? There's never a right time to do anything, neither to judge if it's right or wrong to do a thing that we ourselves like.

We won't know to where of what we are doing will lead us to, but if we don't do, we'll probably just regret and there'll be nothing to look back. We can't assure if the end of what we did will lead to our final goal, but this is life right?

What's most important is that we enjoy and love what we are doing, it's okay to fall nor don't foresee the destination. The only person you are destined is the person you decide to be.

This is definitely not my first time feeling lost in life, but I told myself, it's okay, this is life. There're junctions, cross path in every journey. Just keep going, give a timeline, do it, try it. Don't let the surrounding stop what you are doing, all you need in your self-assurance, self-belief & faith.

Because you hold your own life, you make the decision to where you want to be.

Hang on, don't let the tough time break us down. The sun set & rise, so it's okay to fall, and we rise after that. Keep going girl :)

Hello sweeties! The "Life Changing" thing has been going around lately, actually for quite some time already but here my late post about it. Hehe

What's life changing to me? Do you believe that I always have trouble & got so frustrated whenever my "monthly" thing is here? I mean yes, we girls do have some uncontrollable emotions every time we got period, but I'm saying that, I GOT SO FRUSTRATED I ALWAYS FORGOT TO BRING MY PADS!

Yes, you hear me. I do have this kind of trouble problems, 5 days of period, surely 1-2 days will happened 🙈🙈🙈

I'm sorry for being a girl, hahahah


I've been hearing about menstrual cup since long time ago but I never bother about it because I was like .... YEEWWWWWW! Then till last year, my gym girl-friends were all talking about it and few of them actually been using it for quite a while. It became a topic within us and I was thinking, why no?

So last year Dec I decided to get myself one since it was on promotion.

The first cycle wasn't good at all! (that's pretty normal) I got really really fed up throughout my period, I couldn't insert properly and it kept leaking. I didn't bother if it was my first time using it, I just hate it! 😓😓😓

Then on my second cycle, I used it for ONE day then I told myself, let's just forget about it. 😂😂😂

So that little pink thing just sat at a corner kesian-ly ..

& till my 3rd cycle, I was looking at it and I was thinking, since i've spent on it, why not give it another try?

So I sat on the toilet bowl for about 10mins tryna figure out this "magical life changing" thing.. and POP! God knows how I manage to insert it correctly.

I went gym during my period, I kept only ONE pad in my bag ... and throughout the whole week of period, it was GREAT! Hassle freeeeeee!! 👏👏👏

I literally screamed and shouted in out girls group chat, that how happy I was that I FINALLY manage to use it properly, correctly with no leaking at all!!

Yes, it definitely my life-changing biggest decision that I have no regret trying all over again to finally make it right! 💟

I bought this menstrual cup from Initmina in USD$ , I bought it at a discounted price, which I forgot how much it was.

It made of medical-safe silicon, very soft & light. You don't feel anything at all having it in your vagina, I even tried it out at gym workout.

It's pretty small and convenient, my concern was how should I clean it? It's pretty easy, make sure the toilet has a water hoe and choose those with toilet bowl rather than squatting so you can adjust better and also wash it easier.

There will be no stain on it, no worries. It made of silicon and use water to wash it clean before you insert it back in. I boil it before and after my cycle to kill the germs & remain the hygiene.

Basically you just have to fold it half, and insert into your vagina, breathe normally, no pressure. And in order to take it out, just pull the tip and push a little at the side.

For my experience, the blood do not come out at the side so there'll be no worries on having the blood on your fingers when you pull it out, but ofcourse, it depend on how you do it. Also, you do not need to take it out when you have to pee. It is sealed properly inside and will not slide out, unless it wasnt insert properly.


I must say that menstrual cup really worth a try, once you've mastered how to use, it really hassle free. Specially to people like me, forgetful 😅😅😅 always forget to refill pads in my bag. This is the choice! It even much convenient if you are the out-going person, or night life people. It really free up your worries when you gotta hangout and afraid of the blood smell on your pad, the mark on your tight pants/skirt.

The one I'm having now is Lily Cup Once which designed for beginner. It comes in different sizes because our cervix length is different and also our flow. Lily Cup fits perfectly in me, because I have lower cervix & just nice for my flow (I am heavy flow on the first & 2nd day, it holds up to 6hours during my heavy flow)



Here's some info I cropped from Intimina - Lily Cup One , you may head over to their website for more information, usage guidance ..


Not forget to mention that they are having promotion right now, don't miss it!

Cheers, till then .. 💕

Valentine's day, a celebration of romance, romantic love in all religion around the world...

What's valentine to you?

Valentine's day, some made it a special day in their relationship, some said everyday would be valentine's day as long both being in love everyday.

And yes, to me, valentine's day is just another lovely day for us but no doubt, we'd make it an excuse for us to have good dinner, & gifts? ;p But most importantly, having each others company, especially spending quality time together...

We had a deal made when we started this relationship, that we will give full respect & full freedom of each others personal/private time, but the 3 special dates (birthday, valentine, anniversary) and weekends must belong to each other (unless something's up)

We both have our own career, our own schedule, our own routine. That's what we don't interrupt and less involve. And therefore, it what make us concern more on our time spending together, & communication plays a real big role in the relationship..

Now we are 190miles apart (not that far, i know) but it's still a distance that we only meet 3-4days a month, which is a real big challenge for us.

Mobile phone is our only connection, throughout the months, we definitely have learned a lot. Not just how to manage a long distance relationship but self development. Mentally thought & emotions, both that matters really a lot not just in a relationship but also ourselves, and that what we needed most to support each other.

We sort of mentally broke down and bad emotional at the beginning with all the things happened individually, but slowly we talked about it and learn from every break down.

We learned that, at every stage of life we have different obstacles, tasks & responsibilities. That's how people grow as well. But I'm thankful that he never fail to hold on to us tightly, telling me that we will be fine, we encourage each other at most time.

Through these, no gift values more than the time we could have together and that's all I ever ask for, for every occasions. It is the most precious valuable gift, - quality time.


Never forget to cherish, appreciate, and most important, ACCEPT every flaws, because no one's perfect and no one will ever be. Also, nothing makes perfection if we do not know how to accept one and another, because that's what we need in Love.

Happy Valentine's Day to all love birds :)

Hello sweeties, haven't been writing for so long and I thought... why not?

How have you guys been? My 2018 wasn't that fine but I survived. If you followed me on my instagram, I've been pretty much down & emotional in the past year with all things that happened. But I learnt to live through it and move on.

2018 taught me well on how to manage my emotion. And by saying "live on", most of the time we would say let's just forget it, let it go and move on. But in the past year, I've learned to "live on" to feel it, the emotions at that moment and it surprisingly made me moved on better.

We can't force ourself to let go or forget something, but I've learned to live through the pain, the tears, the aches. Feelings won't just go as you wished, instead of struggling yourself to let go the pain, why not we feel it real inside, think of why would this happen and what's the bright side of it. Eventually the feeling will calm and you'll walk out of it.

Everything happened for a reason, let it be. It's okay if nothing goes as planned, it will come into line if we could see and find that one shinny bright star in the dark.

Anyway, thank you very much 2018 for teaching me how to manage my emotion and restructured my mindset. I started 2019 real fresh & great, unlike the older first-day-of-the-new-year(s), I always still feel upset of the past, struggle & force myself to not feel it, just move on and it just never work.

So, Holla 2019! Just the 15 days of the new year and I have plenty things running in my mind, tryna rebuild, restructure, recreate myself. Making the first move of things that I always want to do or planned to do, ofcourse one step at a time. Hopefully the year go awesome :)

Before ending the post, here me & my friend came up an idea to let go out pre-loved items in instagram - @CC_PRELOVED_SHOP instead of just carousell. These pretties are looking for new owner, so check 'em up for some little support.

Note* Every RM1 of each item sold will be donated to Suka Society .
Suka Society is a local organization that works towards protecting and preserving the best interests of children.

Do drop by to check out and give us some support :)

Cheers, till then.

人往往因為挫折，折磨，困境，失敗，拒絕，抗拒，恐懼，害怕，就開始懷疑自己的能力，把自己看低看扁。

因為不成功，你便告訴一堆沒頭沒腦的理由，責怪全世界。

因為人總是太多的理由，太多的借口，太多的“哎喲，是咯”，所以永遠不會做好，而在失敗時，永遠只會覺得是別人的問題，別人的不好，但卻沒想想，是否自己哪裡做得不對，自己哪裡需要改進。

當你有這些行為時，你是否有在同時糾正自己，想想該怎麼樣才能避免這些所謂“失敗的理由”？

失敗其實並沒有別的理由，要麼你就辦得到，要麼就想想該怎麼去辦到。

世上沒有辦不到的事，只有懶惰不想去辦的事。

不要讓自己埋葬在“借口”裡，它只會讓你不斷的失敗，找不到出口。

如果你非得要辦到一件事，或得到一樣東西，那就讓自己走出所謂的“安樂窩”（Comfort Zone)

你要是面對／處理一件事時，感到不自在，感到尷尬，那正是你學習成長的過程。

一切的努力，一切的血汗，到最後，得到的是自己的，並不是在利益任何人。

命運和未來的路會怎麼樣，掌握在于自己手中。

你要是勇於跨出那一步，你要是勇於嘗試，你要是勇於讓自己承受種種的壓力，你要是能夠拋開借口，你要是離開安樂窩，你必定能在短期內成功。

短短5年的辛苦，換取，長長30年的輕鬆無憂無慮生活式

還是

30年的半辛苦半輕鬆生活，選擇在于你手中。

人常常說，幸福沒有捷徑，同樣的，成功之路沒有捷徑，只有努力回來的血汗。

切記：NO PAIN NO GAIN

Hi folks, just happened to read blogs & came to my own blog, realized the last post was in May.
There were few times I was attempted to crap some stuff here but just like what my friends said, I have nothing to write about.. It means my life been sucky uh. ):

Not so sure if I'm doing good recently, & questions are back again such as like, Am I still who I am(was)?

Answer is .. I don't actually know, people told that, I'm probably hiding who I was & trying to be another (better) me or whatsoever. I'm not sure. I'm basically used with the current me but I'd say, it depends on what. In terms of, career? personality? life? or .. relationship?

It's been bothering me and I do realize, I never dare to ask for the thing I want anymore, or be the one I want to be anymore. Too many things awaiting me ahead to get it done, or probably I pressured myself with self-high-expectations too much. Uh, I hate feeling so lost at some time.

But I'm still proud to say I'm happy with what I have now & things I do.

Let's cut this off.

Crazily joined Puma Night Run 2014 yesterday 25th Oct in Setia Alam.


I took the risk by not training in about 3months+ .. It was crazy yet enjoyed very much. Throughout the run, it motivated me and my mind was running through a lot of stuff. hehh.. Anyway, 10km in 1h22m :)

So something I'm proud to share with y'all is that, my newly joined team - International Property Club (IPC) in Jazzcapital. :) I'm always proud to tell people I'm a Jazzcapitalist & IPC member .. IPC mainly focus in Australia, London & Singapore properties. Do buzz me or inbox me if you'd like to know more :) bell.chia@jazzcapitalproperty.com

Lately we just had a gathering, not all attended due to personal reason but still most of us were together.


You probably see there're just the few of us, we have in total of 12 members with 1 ladyboss. & IPC only allow quality selected people. Whoops. :D
Anyway, Always a great time with them <3 Oh, the theme of the gathering night is pajamas, it means family being together under the same shade. :)

But what I want to share is that, we had a very memorable trip in Melbourne. 65% for work (site/projects viewing) and 35% was to have fun. Basically we had fun most of the time la. haha.

 Hehh, just me pretending to be cool.



Us in the house living hall. :) Rented a landed house in York St, Richmond. More to a vietnamese place.



Loving this group photo at Maidstone viewing The Grove townhouse project by R Corp.


Not forget to mention that our meeting with Mr William Chen, Chairman of Jalin Realty in Melbourne 55 Colllins which is us Jazzcapital partnership with. A very nice & friendly man :)

It was a 7D6N trip in Melbourne. I swear I'll work hard & make sure myself travel there once a year or alternate year & will definitely migrate/buy a property there when I can afford in future. :)

After the trip, we're back to reality & I'm happy to back to work again because ...



My achievement/graduation in SDU5 (Special Duty Unit) by Jazzcapital :)

Probably not the best result but I'm qualified in the challenge, at least.

One of the platform that allows you to do better in your career and achieve your dream/goal in Jazzcapital. :)

It's my second time joining this platform training & glad I did much better than the first time. Never give up & just keep doing it.

Time to speed up myself to achieve more and more in life. Now is not the time to enjoy, efforts will paid off one day, soon!

 (photo credits to LeahTeng Photography)

Another tough month, April.

Things weren't really good lately. But life still goes on.

I only have 3 hours class every week, so I'm resume back to work, to continue build my career & trying to achieve my goal & bring my dream to life.

Started a new job this month, hopefully I'll be able to do it well.

Resumed back my previous job, hopefully I'll be able to achieve my target.

Yes, I'm having two careers. Hehe :)

Ain't that busy lately but stuffed with appointments & handling some personal stuff.

Learnt a lot recently by just meeting people, catching up with friends. That's what I love to do, socializing.

(photo credits to LeahTeng Photography)

I need a break, I think I had a lil. But not too much, because I had enough.

The fire is back, hopefully it'll last longer this time.

I'm 23, but I'm chasing my dream.

I may be lost, but it wont take long.

I've said so much but with no action. It mean nothing at all.

Taking the fire, hoping it'll be able to sparkle it up, burn 'em all, & amazing fireworks in the sky up there.

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Been clubbing almost every weekend for about 4 weeks continuously with my women. I call it crazy, I don't club, never in to it, special occasions are exception. Time to stop for a while. I'm hell tired, haha .. like I'm getting old.

Been drinking very much lately other than clubbing, as usual. Alcoholic ain't a crime. It's something very common in life now. Hehe ..

Shall stop crapping, will be back soon :)

Time flies really fast, it's the last week of March. Almost did nothing.
Not really a good month tho. Can't recall what have I done in the month. =/

Feeling lost, I've got no idea.
I can't make decision, I'll get mad.
Mood swings really bad, I get pissed off easily.

Not really who I am now. What's wrong?
Something is missing inside, but I dont know what is it.
Felt that, something has gone in me. What was that?

I'm confused. I have no idea.

So much thoughts, thoughts, every night before I sleep.
Things never be easy, but never too hard.
It could be complicated, it could not be too.

Life is short, or not.


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Let's cut 'em off.

I had this dream a year back, not those dream-in-the-sleep but the dream, a thing, a goal I wished for.
Never thought I'd bring it to life. But now I wanted it to be life, live.
Not sure if I can do it, but i'll try. I want to build my dream.
Given myself few years time, hopefully I can do it.
No, it's a must to do it. Not gonna give up.

Pre-planning now.
So much to learn, so much to plan, so much to do.
But it's okay, that's where the dream begin from. :)

Life, is all about dare to dream but not forgetting to bring it to life.

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I wanna get an ink, on my wrist. With an inspiring word.
A word, that motivates and inspires me in life.

What do you think?

No cheesy word, no common word, but something ..

Xoxo.

 Oh wow! It's the third week of March. Time flies. How have you people been? Hope everything are doing great.

It's the month of March, my birthday was just a week ago. It came so fast and it went off so fast. March still doing fine, not really, but uhh.. yea.. I don't know.

Finally had a hair cut at Editor Salon located in Setia Alam, which was well recommended by DaphneCharice. I can't recall when was the last time I went to the salon, probably.. 6 - 8 months back? I've no idea.

I've decided to get a shorter fringe instead of bangs, and 3inches shorter at the back, which it never make any difference to anyone. Haha, people was like, " you seriously cut your hair? like, seriously? " I'm sure most of you that followed my instagram, my hair was freaking long & thick. But yea, just give me some time to get it shorter. I'll definitely cry my ass off if I ever get a short hair, but but but ... whatever.


Definitely a shorter hair & went for even brighter color.

So yeah, my birthday, it was good, a super peaceful one. No, I don't want a fancy dinner, luxury gifts. All I want is just to spend time with my beloved one, friends & family.


Went Providence 2 days before birthday, Family dinner the day before, Skybar at 12am and spend my actual day with the friends.


March oh March .. I feel lost at times, most of the time, but I always know deep in my heart that, what I wanted, I'm just, not so sure of it. *craps* throughout these days, I've realized so much ... life. :)

It was FMFA14 on the past weekend. I was working, as usual. I don't really like to spend hundreds on party entry, I'd rather get a free pass. Hehhee .. anyway, I love to work & rave :)

FMFA14 ASOT650 was awesome, but unfortunately few people died due to drugs overdose, so the last day of FMFA14 was forced to be cancelled. :( Sigh. But well, at least we had a great at Happer Damansara Jaya with the crews.


One of the best shot during work. It was fun working with the crew & all party animals. :)

Coming weekends will be busy with work, so many things waiting to be done. & so many March babies around me. :) Shall party rock this month before I start something new in April onwards.

Xoxo

Hello lovelies. It's Friday, Day 8th of CNY. Hope you're having a great week there.

It's been extremely hot out there since the first day of new year, it gives me massive headache for few days. I'm sensitive to sunny hot sun, I can barely stay outside under the sun or even in the car with direct sunlight, I'll either get massive headache after that for 2 days or my body temperature will goes up. Tsk.

My CNY has been average, not very festive. It's day 8th worship god, called 拜天公 (bai tian gong) in mandarin. Still not sure if it only applies to certain culture like hokkien, cause my family don't celebrate it as we're teow chew, we usually go to my mom's side as they are hokkien for praying.

Watch The Monkey King, I'd say it is very much rather disappointed than Ah Beng. Too much of computerized throughout the movie. Highly not recommended movie I'd say.

So many movies haven't watch, only watched 3 movies in this CNY. :( I miss my movie marathon. hehe.


Had an early birthday celebration for Mom due that me & aunt won't be around on her actual day. Had dinner at Kampachi for her celebration. I'd actually expected more from Kampachi but it kind of a disappointment. Their foods are nice but Zanmai, Rakuzen, Hokkaido would do much better job than Kampachi.

Well, thankfully the rest of my CNY days are fully occupied. Will blog about it :)

Xoxo.

新年快樂哦！年初三，我在這裡寫部落格，應該看得出我的新年蠻無聊的吧。哈哈

由於太嬤剛過世，所以都沒怎麼去拜年，要拜的都在年初一拜完了。今年的新年都感覺沒什麼氣氛，好平靜地度過。

看了「阿炳馬到功成」，老實說，沒意思又沒什麼好看。
待會兒和家人看「六幅喜事」，希望不會失望吧，港戲從不令人失望吧，嘻嘻。

明天到星期三都會有些節目，再過一個星期要合同事去海邊旅行了。至少我的新年也不那麼差吧。

你們的新年都過的不錯吧？今年是馬年，屬羊的也會蠻好，希望保佑今年的我一切順順利利。

不到新年都不知道自己胖了那麼多，呵呵！手臂和肚腩好明顯哦！發福麻，沒辦法。哈哈！

好了，無聊的我寫了無聊的Po.

祝大家過個大肥年噢！

Haven't been updating my blog quite a while, been busy for exams and project. I'm done with 'em & my final year degree. Unfortunately I have to re-module few subjects before I can officially end my studies. But it's okay, I've finally found the enjoyment being a student. Hehe.

As my final datelines was 27th Jan, so I kinda left out quite a number of things haven't done. I didn't get to go to the salon for my hair, so I used Liese home DIY hair dye & my own home DIY hair treatment, results were within my expectation :)

It's 30th, hope you & your family had a great reunion day. I had mine, lunch with mom's side family and dinner with my dad's side family. Hehe. It was great :)