Hello 2019, hello people :) Hasnt been writing since ...
As the title said, so I decided to write about my 2019, because it not wonderful but somehow it's great.

2018 marked one of the not-so-great year, that I was completely lost about my own life.
and I chose to embrace it and live on beautifully in 2019.

I wouldn't say that 2019 is amazing but it's a year that I have finally found and clear of my own journey in life.

Some memories that I picked, to be remembered here ..


My first career every since in Uni till graduated, Insurance Agent / Wealth Management Adviser marked the 7th year this year. And our agency decided made a whole new change for better growth and positioned as Business Director now. I must say that, it was tough for all of us but it is definitely great and amazing for this transition because everyone is doing way better with the new and better vision direction in this career. I'm definitely thankful to whom I called my bosses, their support and guidance and encouragement.


A must to be remembered is our family yearly trip. Though it wasn't a complete one but this trip filled with great memories and it definitely brought us closer. And also I wanna say that, I really am thankful for my family, they have been supporting me, encouraging me, guiding me and be with me through the up and down. I wouldn't survive today without them and I wouldn't be who am I doing what I am doing now without their love.


Online business may not be considered by many of you, but I decided to gave myself one more chance to take this seriously and so I committed myself as a Director in this business. Yes, this is what we call as "Wei Shang - 微商". Main reason is because I love doing business but I never know where to start from and I definitely have failed in my previous wei shang business because I did not position myself with the right attitude and mindset, but this time, I must say it's real. By taking this product also because I personally consumed it, and with proven result that I do believe this product does help all you girls out there. Not forget to mention the business model is way more different than any other online business. So yea, I joined E+ and must not forget to mention also that big thank to each and everyone in the team, I learnt so much and I'm sure we can do even better to build this!


I'm not a christian, and I'm open to explore. I was on empty schedule on the Christmas Eve, so I decided to accept my friend's invitation to join their church Candle Light Service. and it was so beautiful, listening to beautiful soul stories as well. My first Candle Light Service and it was a great night, having good peace in my heart, flashing back down the memory lane throughout the year. I just wanna say, thank you.


Not the last yet, One memory that I must include in is visiting the orphanage on the Christmas.
I have never done this and I never regret doing this. I always believe and thinks that kids are our future, they are such an adorable beautiful angels. They deserve love and care and many more. They journey ahead is way long more. I hand picked and packed each of them a gift bag, personalised with their name on it. Each with a set of stationary and book and a Christmas cookie. Trust me, their smile on their face when they took over the gift from my hand were priceless! It melts my heart.


I hope this picture doesn't scares you, and yea nothing scary actually. But one thing that I wanna share and be remembered, those experiences and feelings deep in my heart.
I fell off with gastric bacteria infection in the last quarter of the year, suffered from pain and bloated stomach (now still on & off) , still on medication now and next check up will be in few weeks.
This experience was, I'd say a life lesson that made me stronger. I was so so weak during my admission, couldn't stop crying from the drips, needles and pain in the entire body. I couldn't think straight in those nights, I know it wasn't anything serious but it was the weak down feelings in me, first time in my life. But through these feelings, I became stronger in my soul, and my heart. Oh, I actually consulted 2nd doctor's opinion for better diagnosis. Nothing too serious, nothing harmful, I just gonna keep on with medication till my next check up and I really wish to say goodbye to these.

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How have your year been? In overall, I wanna say thank you 2019. Thank you for the people I met, thank you for those who still sticks around and thank you for those who left.
With the people around, with the memories and incidents throughout the year, it encouraged me to finally move on to better journey ahead, the change of life, change of mindset. For better growth, for better self development, for better future.

It ain't easy to live on and move on, but I finally did by seeing the values and with clear vision in my mind. I think it matters most in everything we do, know what exactly we want and just do it.

To me, regret is worst than failure. Life may be short or long, it's unpredictable. Time don't wait either, it's either you give it a shot, do it now, or stuck yourself with regrets by end of the day.

Once again, Thank you 2019. Till then, <3

Time flies, first quarter of the year left just two more days and we are entering the 2nd quarter.

How's everyone doing so far? Me, progressing...

I'm currently at the cross path, in 2019, I started a part of what I always wanted to do which I never pursued and gave up midway. At the same time, building up new things and also continuing what I've been doing for years (my career).

Purpose of writing this randomly is because I miss those old days writing diary then converted into blog about my days, my feelings, my thoughts.. those hassle-care-free days, just give a shot to do whatever I wanted and half way, I lost my path.

Reason why 2019 I decided to continue what I used to passionated about, is because, "why not?" came into my mind that, time don't wait and once it's gone, it's gone forever. If I don't do it now, then when? There's never a right time to do anything, neither to judge if it's right or wrong to do a thing that we ourselves like.

We won't know to where of what we are doing will lead us to, but if we don't do, we'll probably just regret and there'll be nothing to look back. We can't assure if the end of what we did will lead to our final goal, but this is life right?

What's most important is that we enjoy and love what we are doing, it's okay to fall nor don't foresee the destination. The only person you are destined is the person you decide to be.

This is definitely not my first time feeling lost in life, but I told myself, it's okay, this is life. There're junctions, cross path in every journey. Just keep going, give a timeline, do it, try it. Don't let the surrounding stop what you are doing, all you need in your self-assurance, self-belief & faith.

Because you hold your own life, you make the decision to where you want to be.

Hang on, don't let the tough time break us down. The sun set & rise, so it's okay to fall, and we rise after that. Keep going girl :)

Hello sweeties! The "Life Changing" thing has been going around lately, actually for quite some time already but here my late post about it. Hehe

What's life changing to me? Do you believe that I always have trouble & got so frustrated whenever my "monthly" thing is here? I mean yes, we girls do have some uncontrollable emotions every time we got period, but I'm saying that, I GOT SO FRUSTRATED I ALWAYS FORGOT TO BRING MY PADS!

Yes, you hear me. I do have this kind of trouble problems, 5 days of period, surely 1-2 days will happened 🙈🙈🙈

I'm sorry for being a girl, hahahah


I've been hearing about menstrual cup since long time ago but I never bother about it because I was like .... YEEWWWWWW! Then till last year, my gym girl-friends were all talking about it and few of them actually been using it for quite a while. It became a topic within us and I was thinking, why no?

So last year Dec I decided to get myself one since it was on promotion.

The first cycle wasn't good at all! (that's pretty normal) I got really really fed up throughout my period, I couldn't insert properly and it kept leaking. I didn't bother if it was my first time using it, I just hate it! 😓😓😓

Then on my second cycle, I used it for ONE day then I told myself, let's just forget about it. 😂😂😂

So that little pink thing just sat at a corner kesian-ly ..

& till my 3rd cycle, I was looking at it and I was thinking, since i've spent on it, why not give it another try?

So I sat on the toilet bowl for about 10mins tryna figure out this "magical life changing" thing.. and POP! God knows how I manage to insert it correctly.

I went gym during my period, I kept only ONE pad in my bag ... and throughout the whole week of period, it was GREAT! Hassle freeeeeee!! 👏👏👏

I literally screamed and shouted in out girls group chat, that how happy I was that I FINALLY manage to use it properly, correctly with no leaking at all!!

Yes, it definitely my life-changing biggest decision that I have no regret trying all over again to finally make it right! 💟

I bought this menstrual cup from Initmina in USD$ , I bought it at a discounted price, which I forgot how much it was.

It made of medical-safe silicon, very soft & light. You don't feel anything at all having it in your vagina, I even tried it out at gym workout.

It's pretty small and convenient, my concern was how should I clean it? It's pretty easy, make sure the toilet has a water hoe and choose those with toilet bowl rather than squatting so you can adjust better and also wash it easier.

There will be no stain on it, no worries. It made of silicon and use water to wash it clean before you insert it back in. I boil it before and after my cycle to kill the germs & remain the hygiene.

Basically you just have to fold it half, and insert into your vagina, breathe normally, no pressure. And in order to take it out, just pull the tip and push a little at the side.

For my experience, the blood do not come out at the side so there'll be no worries on having the blood on your fingers when you pull it out, but ofcourse, it depend on how you do it. Also, you do not need to take it out when you have to pee. It is sealed properly inside and will not slide out, unless it wasnt insert properly.


I must say that menstrual cup really worth a try, once you've mastered how to use, it really hassle free. Specially to people like me, forgetful 😅😅😅 always forget to refill pads in my bag. This is the choice! It even much convenient if you are the out-going person, or night life people. It really free up your worries when you gotta hangout and afraid of the blood smell on your pad, the mark on your tight pants/skirt.

The one I'm having now is Lily Cup Once which designed for beginner. It comes in different sizes because our cervix length is different and also our flow. Lily Cup fits perfectly in me, because I have lower cervix & just nice for my flow (I am heavy flow on the first & 2nd day, it holds up to 6hours during my heavy flow)



Here's some info I cropped from Intimina - Lily Cup One , you may head over to their website for more information, usage guidance ..


Not forget to mention that they are having promotion right now, don't miss it!

Cheers, till then .. 💕

Valentine's day, a celebration of romance, romantic love in all religion around the world...

What's valentine to you?

Valentine's day, some made it a special day in their relationship, some said everyday would be valentine's day as long both being in love everyday.

And yes, to me, valentine's day is just another lovely day for us but no doubt, we'd make it an excuse for us to have good dinner, & gifts? ;p But most importantly, having each others company, especially spending quality time together...

We had a deal made when we started this relationship, that we will give full respect & full freedom of each others personal/private time, but the 3 special dates (birthday, valentine, anniversary) and weekends must belong to each other (unless something's up)

We both have our own career, our own schedule, our own routine. That's what we don't interrupt and less involve. And therefore, it what make us concern more on our time spending together, & communication plays a real big role in the relationship..

Now we are 190miles apart (not that far, i know) but it's still a distance that we only meet 3-4days a month, which is a real big challenge for us.

Mobile phone is our only connection, throughout the months, we definitely have learned a lot. Not just how to manage a long distance relationship but self development. Mentally thought & emotions, both that matters really a lot not just in a relationship but also ourselves, and that what we needed most to support each other.

We sort of mentally broke down and bad emotional at the beginning with all the things happened individually, but slowly we talked about it and learn from every break down.

We learned that, at every stage of life we have different obstacles, tasks & responsibilities. That's how people grow as well. But I'm thankful that he never fail to hold on to us tightly, telling me that we will be fine, we encourage each other at most time.

Through these, no gift values more than the time we could have together and that's all I ever ask for, for every occasions. It is the most precious valuable gift, - quality time.


Never forget to cherish, appreciate, and most important, ACCEPT every flaws, because no one's perfect and no one will ever be. Also, nothing makes perfection if we do not know how to accept one and another, because that's what we need in Love.

Happy Valentine's Day to all love birds :)

Hello sweeties, haven't been writing for so long and I thought... why not?

How have you guys been? My 2018 wasn't that fine but I survived. If you followed me on my instagram, I've been pretty much down & emotional in the past year with all things that happened. But I learnt to live through it and move on.

2018 taught me well on how to manage my emotion. And by saying "live on", most of the time we would say let's just forget it, let it go and move on. But in the past year, I've learned to "live on" to feel it, the emotions at that moment and it surprisingly made me moved on better.

We can't force ourself to let go or forget something, but I've learned to live through the pain, the tears, the aches. Feelings won't just go as you wished, instead of struggling yourself to let go the pain, why not we feel it real inside, think of why would this happen and what's the bright side of it. Eventually the feeling will calm and you'll walk out of it.

Everything happened for a reason, let it be. It's okay if nothing goes as planned, it will come into line if we could see and find that one shinny bright star in the dark.

Anyway, thank you very much 2018 for teaching me how to manage my emotion and restructured my mindset. I started 2019 real fresh & great, unlike the older first-day-of-the-new-year(s), I always still feel upset of the past, struggle & force myself to not feel it, just move on and it just never work.

So, Holla 2019! Just the 15 days of the new year and I have plenty things running in my mind, tryna rebuild, restructure, recreate myself. Making the first move of things that I always want to do or planned to do, ofcourse one step at a time. Hopefully the year go awesome :)

Before ending the post, here me & my friend came up an idea to let go out pre-loved items in instagram - @CC_PRELOVED_SHOP instead of just carousell. These pretties are looking for new owner, so check 'em up for some little support.

Note* Every RM1 of each item sold will be donated to Suka Society .
Suka Society is a local organization that works towards protecting and preserving the best interests of children.

Do drop by to check out and give us some support :)

Cheers, till then.